May - in March a man expressed interest in dating me which was weird for me because I feel anything but attractive I did lose all of my hair but by May I had my concerns about how this person; :their inability to keep commitments and the language they used in communication. Needless to say by June 1 with the announcement that I had 'inspired them to return to their religion/ led me to learn more. I have to admit I was concerned with sites called it a cult - but when I saw they did not allow
- dating or marriage outside the religion I thought wow - so I did some more digging.
- If you have a blood donation the church shuns or disfellowhips you
- they have their own bible that scholars state is slanted to church doctrine.
- If a members family is not in good standing that member could be forced out of positions they hold in the church.
I quickly realized that his decision to 'return to his faith' was the end of our relationship - I had been grilled excessively about my religious beliefs and had answered honestly and quickly. This was not to be the case it was as if this person could not explain the things I found online - so I asked if his church told him he could not longer date me would he comply. He immediately became upset with me - the aggressive, name calling behavior was back and he disconnected the call - I knew that night it was over but to add to my stress it took him 3 days to respond to my question. The lesson in all of this is that I have far too much on my plate and I just don't have the energy or patience to deal with the emotional garbage of dating. I need to focus on me and my health - I need to be selfish and anyone who can't understand and accept this needs to move on to the next girl because this girl is staying focused on her health. No sweet talking man is going to derail my focus and my drive to be selfish and take care of only me.
On the medical front - my thyroid is a mess and the first and second rounds have failed to get it under control. We are on to round 3 of a drug that makes you lose your hair - and the hits keep coming! I went through my preop appointment with my to do list for the night before - Citrate magnesium and a Fleet enema - yes seriously and my full hysterectomy is scheduled for June 19th at 1030a, I get to spend the night in the hospital and then it home to rest for 3 days and no driving for 2 weeks. Oncology appointment tomorrow - scans and blood tests are done so now I wait to see what they show...or if Interferon has damaged more of my body.
